I apologise for not blogging for a while. I tried blogging about my weekend away at Eildon but the photos don't show and I'm so over trying to upload photos onto my blog that I've just given up until I find more time.

I've uploaded them up here http://georginalee.fotopic.net, and the password is (exclusive to my friends and blog readers): expectrespect. So go there and check out my photos from my weekend away waterskiing!!

That weekend away was definitely needed - a time to relax and chill with my favourite people before the kill. Ever since I've been running around like a headless chicken... with so much on my plate. I have so much uni work to do yet I have been pushing it aside due to the graduate recruitment season. Preparing for interviews, doing ability tests, keeping up with financial markets, etc. Its a very strenous and delicate process. Let me explain.

I have been both absolutely soul crushed and elated in spans of as little as 30 seconds. I would get all completely flustered doing the timed online tests and upset when I didn't get the test done in time or as well as I think I could have done. Then I'd think I did horredously in an interview and awaiting my rejection call and then finding out that I've made it to the next round. Then I'd stuff something up in another area of my life and get a little emo over that.

I mean, its not like I don't handle stress very well... I do... but 'tis the season for people to judge and later tell you whether you're worthy/good enough for them. And your worthiness translates to whether or not you have a job next year. Like it or not, that's what the recruitment process is... and it can be incredibly disappointing yet highly rewarding. It's like I'm hanging onto a randomly floating bouy in the sea wondering whether I'll make it to shore or drown and what I can do to succeed amongst these harsh waves. Shitty metaphor, but give me a break!

Every day when I open my email I'll find something that seem to be telling me what my future career prospects are like. "Congratulations, you've made it to the next round in our recruitment process!", "We're sorry that we will not be proceeding with your application", "Please complete this online test by 30 March"... It's incredible! It's like getting your daily horoscope in your inbox. You never know what's in store for you tomorrow.

Right now I'm rather satisfied with my process despite the up and downs because for every down there's an up. And I know that whatever happens once all this is over will have happened for a reason. This frame of mind is what I think is the best way to overcoming disappointment when you think you have failed and bringing meaning to the outcome when you have succeeded.

I'm going to go to bed now. I took tonight off just to destress and do something OTHER than apply for jobs and/or preparing for interviews and/or reading up the financial press and/or revising my finance knowledge and/or doing timed online numerical tests.

I'm really hoping all this hard work will pay off...! A good friend said to me "Please never say that word in front of me", "What word?", "'Hope' and every other word that stems from it", "Why?", "Only losers hope. You, on the other hand, MAKE it happen" - Corny... but it is one of the best things that has been said to me to my face. I'd thought I'd pass it on ;)

xo